Right now I am…

:: looking forward to the weekend

:: knowing I will be working on that book again, but I’m catching up on my schedule now and that feels great!

:: wishing you a very good weekend too

Right now I am…

:: feeling a lot more confident than I did this past week

:: happy to have sent of story #2 today

:: amazed that I actually teared up a bit on rereading one part of it

:: thinking that it’s not fair that these booklets are looked down on so much.

People tell me that they won’t be reading them. But this is not trash; there is no adult content in it (or I wouldn’t/couldn’t be writing it) and the quality of the story is very much depending on the one who wrote it. There are some that are a bit less good (mostly because those writers are very inexperienced), but that doesn’t make me any less of a writer, or does it? And the fact that it’s just a booklet and not a real book makes it very cheap. That’s a good thing. It’s not about the outside, it’s the story that counts. At least, that’s what I think. Oh well, I’ll stop rambling now. I really enjoy writing these stories and it pays too, so I’ll be submitting my synopsis for story #3 soon, no matter what people say.

:: switching to writing book #6 again. I think I’m so close to wrapping it up. I will miss that main character. I love her. She’s a photographer, a traveler (as in not staying in one place for a long time) and very independent. I will have to make sure that I don’t change her too much to make it a happy ending. I think that count (yes, really) will have to accept her for who she is.

:: wondering if you mind that I talk about writing so much in this space. It’s just a very big part of my life right now.

Right now I am…

:: even more tired than I’ve been last week

:: taking a day off writing

:: reading instead (Soul Flame  by Barbara Wood -love it, like all her books)

Right now I am…

:: stressed out a bit

:: thinking I may need to change those self-imposed deadlines

:: still wanting to proof that I really can do it (2 books and 12 stories a year – I know of someone who does 7 books, 12 stories and some other work)

:: doubting my priorities at this point, I also love being a mother and a homemaker and I’m not sure I can do it all

:: knowing that things will work out like they always do

:: hoping to finish the first draft of book #6 today

:: thinking it may be a few days later though

Right now I am…

:: thinking I may have noticed Spring beginning anyway, looking at the pictures I took the last few days. I thought I wasn’t really

:: also remembering now the smell of laundry dried in the sun. Oh yes!

:: writing like crazy. I have some (mostly self-imposed) deadlines coming up and really want to finish in time (because after those deadlines there is a lot of fun ahead – a vacation, summer)

:: sitting next to a man who is also working like crazy (but is also looking forward to that vacation and summer)

:: feeling my muscles from excercising yesterday and the day before (trying to loose some weight again and get back some strength)

:: gearing up to exercise today too

Right now I am…

:: thinking that this was not my most inspired week of daily photographs (three nights in a row: oh my, forgot to take a picture!)

:: cheating just a little bit on Tuesday’s picture. It was actually taken a few minutes after midnight, so technically it was already Wednesday

:: hoping next week will be better

:: but thinking it might not be, for I know I will be very, very busy (as always…)

Right now I am…

:: tired from working in the front garden this morning

:: feeling happy for the sun we’ve had this weekend and today (and forecasts say we’ll be getting more)

Right now I am…

:: feeling a whole lot better than yesterday

:: happy that this morning the sun was shining. I had the door open the whole morning. Lots of fresh air in the house. Bliss.

:: still smiling for waiting half an hour at the doctor’s office today. The assistent had seen me come in, but thought I couldn’t be the 40 year old woman she was expecting (she thought I was in my early thirties 😉 )

Right now I am…

:: not sure what to think of todays picture. It’s a bit… experimental (and I think I need to try this again with better light)

:: thinking this is rather representive of how I’m feeling today

Right now I am…

:: regretting that I didn’t go outside yesterday when it was sunny (today it’s gray and raining – again)

:: hoping I will remember this next time it’s sunny