All over the place

One of the things on my extensive list of things to do today was to write a blogpost. I did finish almost everything else on that list but now I’m so crazy tired that I can hardly think. But I still want to post something. Skipping more than one week usually leads to skipping months and I just don’t want that.

I was kind of hoping to be able to write a knitting update, but truth to be told, I’ve hardly been knitting these days. It’s so crazy hot and humid, that even knitting with cotton doesn’t really feel so great. Also, I’ve had a headache that lasted over a week and while knitting is relaxing, trying to figure out how to finish a top with too little yarn for the obvious ways, isn’t.

Between headaches I have been working on my computer, but I spent that time working on my Dutch blog. The tiny bit of income I have comes from people who read my books, so it was time to reconnect with them a bit. I also have to prepare a blogpost for that blog today, but I thought I’d give you guys a little update first. If only I knew about what…

There’s a lot going on in my mind, but I don’t think I can put everything into words in a way that I won’t mind being out there for everyone to read. I’m still struggling with feeling at home and I’m really irritated with myself about that. I have to say though, it doesn’t help that it’s so hot these days. I’m trying to tell myself to just wait it out, do only what really needs to be done and after we’re back from the Netherlands, it will be a bit cooler. At least I hope so.

This morning I tried to film myself doing household chores, because I still have this idea in my head that I may want to start doing YouTube some day. Well… let’s just say I’ll need to get used to seeing myself moving around. I was thinking: gosh, I look like an older woman. Yeah, that could be right. I am 52 after all. In my mind I’m still 18 though, so I’m always a bit shocked when I see myself. And of course all the girls women I watch on Youtube are a lot younger -and fitter- than me. But that’s exactly why I think I should try. I’d like to see more normal women over 50 doing clean-with-me videos and vlogs.

My goodness, this post is all over the place, isn’t it? But I guess that’s a good image of what my mind is doing right now. I just can’t focus.

Anyway. Wishing you all a great start to your week. I will check in Thursday (I think) with that knitting update.

(that picture? Yeah, another one of my crazy ideas… show my face more often. Oh well, I’m just going to leave it. But please don’t start telling me I should do make-up. I don’t really like make-up, but it would just rinse of my face with all the sweating I’m doing these days, so it’s just no use.)