Right now I am…

:: focusing on happy little things (see that curly bit? I like it)

:: trying to handle a major disappointment

:: making new plans already

Right now I am…

:: wondering where the day went

:: worrying about all the things I was supposed to do today (but didn’t do)

:: reminding myself that writing sometimes is indeed a full time job

:: knowing that tomorrow will be another day

:: smiling at the birdhouse that one of the girls made at school eight years ago. It’s still going strong and heavily in use each spring

Right now I am…

:: tired because I didn’t sleep much last night

:: rewriting my fifth (to be published – it’s actually my eighth) novel

:: understanding, finally, where I want that story to go

:: enjoying the process

Right now I am…

:: bending the rules of my picture-a-day project a bit

:: unable to decide which picture I like best

:: thinking I like them all in a different way

:: loving this heather. It reminds me of my childhood (we had a lot of it in our garden and we used to go for walks here on Sundays)

Right now I am…

:: smiling because I love this cat (we all do)

:: remembering fondly how he chose me as his new owner when I visited the shelter to find us a new cat

:: giggling at his funny habits (sitting on his tail)

:: hoping he will stay with us a little while longer (we don’t know his age, but he was 10+ when we got him 4 years ago. He really is looking old lately, but he’s still happy, friendly and active – when he’s awake)

Right now I am…

:: worried about the people threatened by this storm

we learned that luckily my aunt and uncle are close to, but not in the polder where a dike is breaking – the storm surge barrier that will protect our part of the country is closed already – the region where my parents and brother live (that was flooded in 1953) is safe for now.

:: listening to the wind around our house (I can’t find the words to decribe the sound of it, it’s not howling, it’s more like bumping or banging)

:: smiling because I did take a few minutes to get out of my car to feel and really mindfully notice the power of that storm. It’s both scary and beautiful.

:: still recovering from the flu

:: not able to do all the things on my list as quickly as I wanted to

:: actually enjoying this slower pace 

:: noticing things get done better in the end

:: thinking that this might be a lesson for me to learn this year: slow down!

Right now I am…

:: listening to the storm raging outside

:: so glad we installed double glazing and a new roof

:: taking down Christmas decorations

:: thinking about keeping that wreath for a while (that’s the backside, the front is decorated with clippings from the garden)

Right now I am…

:: saying goodbye to this beautiful flower, since my family is suffering hay-feverish symptoms on top of their flu

:: still glad that I bought it. It was fun watching it grow over the last month

Right now I am…

:: finding the lessons in last year’s mishaps

:: ready to change

:: determined to find a bit of happiness in blogging and photography again