… trying to wake up. I slept very well tonight and I got up rather late, but it seems I could use even more sleep (had a bad case of insomnia the last two weeks)
… enjoying the morning light. We’re nearing zenith (i e. the sun will be directly above us) and the sun is extremely bright these days. I do like it, but this softer, golden light is really nice too
… preparing for a day of computer work. I have to do taxes and payments
… not too unhappy about that – it’s going to be another hot, hot day
… hoping I can get myself to do a bit of exercise though. I started that this weekend and it feels so good
:: so, so happy to be home. Each time we come back after a visit to The Netherlands I feel more like this really is my home.
:: tired. Very tired. I hardly slept last night, even though my body loves this bed more than the one in the cabin, and I didn’t get any sleep on the plane, since it was a day flight. We left at 2 PM Dutch time and arrived at 7:30 PM Curaçao time (5 hour time difference – it’s a 9-10 hour flight and they took a longer route).
:: admitting I was rather pleased with the new content on their entertainment system though. I watched four episodes of Supernatural, and two movies; Mary Poppins returns, and Pan. Loved both movies very much. Mary Poppins and Peter Pan are two of my favorite story characters (both books and movies).
:: looking back at three wonderful weeks. I’m so happy we got to see our grandson quite often (and the rest of our family too of course!).
:: trying to ignore the garden just a little bit longer. I didn’t do much in it before we left (I was focusing on the house those last two weeks- and sick most of the month before that) and it has exploded. So much new growth!
:: excited to get back into gardening. I really missed it.
:: still planning to write a post about my plans and goals for the year. I like how that keeps me accountable and it also helps to try and put things into words.
:: also hoping to write a to-do list and maybe schedule some of my to-dos. I feel a little bit overwhelmed, but that may also be the lack of sleep.
:: struggling to write something more interesting today. I think I’ll leave it at this and go drink some tea, read a book and maybe even take a nap. I’m going to take it slowly and give myself time to rest.
… struggling with today’s post. I had something prepared, but I wasn’t happy with it, so I decided not to post that. But then it started to nag me that I needed to stick to my Monday – Wednesday – Friday schedule, so here I am, ignoring the breakfast dishes and trying to write something, before it’s too late too post (by rules that exist only in my mind).
… thinking the blog is always a bit of a struggle for me, but this time I’m rather determined to keep it going. I always miss it when I quit.
… feeling a bit groggy. We went out for diner yesterday to celebrate something. I was a good girl and didn’t order a smoothie or ice cream, but I did eat a lot of bread.
… wondering about the human mind and how it processes live happenings. Or is it just mine? I’m kinda weird, I know. This thing we celebrated has been weighing on me way too long. In my mind it grew into something much bigger than it actually was. I guess it eventually turned into an obsession and I’ve spent nights lying awake because of it (not trying to be mysterious here, but it’s a very personal, complicated and long story that isn’t just my own, so I can’t really share it). I expected that I would feel relieved, happy, free… now that it’s over. But it’s like my mind is confused. This big thing is gone and now what? Where do we go from here? I am happy, but still not convinced it’s all good (it is). And I can actually feel those obsessive thoughts in my head circling around and trying to find something to return to. So weird! I guess I need a bit of rest.Maybe a few nights of good sleep? That would be great!
… listening to the birds singing outside. I love them so much.
… looking at the trees outside our office window. I think the garden is calling me.
… promising myself some sewing time too
… hoping for a nice and peaceful weekend, with lots of sewing, gardening, knitting and reading. Oh, and sleeping!
NOT A STATION 