Right now…

Right now I am…

… struggling with today’s post. I had something prepared, but I wasn’t happy with it, so I decided not to post that. But then it started to nag me that I needed to stick to my Monday – Wednesday – Friday schedule, so here I am, ignoring the breakfast dishes and trying to write something, before it’s too late too post (by rules that exist only in my mind).

… thinking the blog is always a bit of a struggle for me, but this time I’m rather determined to keep it going. I always miss it when I quit.

… feeling a bit groggy. We went out for diner yesterday to celebrate something. I was a good girl and didn’t order a smoothie or ice cream, but I did eat a lot of bread.

… wondering about the human mind and how it processes live happenings. Or is it just mine? I’m kinda weird, I know.
This thing we celebrated has been weighing on me way too long. In my mind it grew into something much bigger than it actually was. I guess it eventually turned into an obsession and I’ve spent nights lying awake because of it (not trying to be mysterious here, but it’s a very personal, complicated and long story that isn’t just my own, so I can’t really share it).
I expected that I would feel relieved, happy, free… now that it’s over. But it’s like my mind is confused. This big thing is gone and now what? Where do we go from here? I am happy, but still not convinced it’s all good (it is). And I can actually feel those obsessive thoughts in my head circling around and trying to find something to return to. So weird! I guess I need a bit of rest.Maybe a few nights of good sleep? That would be great!

… listening to the birds singing outside. I love them so much.

… looking at the trees outside our office window. I think the garden is calling me.

… promising myself some sewing time too

… hoping for a nice and peaceful weekend, with lots of sewing, gardening, knitting and reading. Oh, and sleeping!

…wishing you all a great weekend too

… going to do those dishes now… 😉