Authentic

~ Maggie

That’s my word for 2025. Authentic. As in “being my authentic self”.

As usual, I wasn’t too keen on accepting my word. It usually turns out to be just the thing that I struggle with most in that year. Last year it was “healing” and the year before “heal” (there is a difference between the two, though only in nuance and feel). Well… let’s just say those weren’t years of good health, neither mental nor physical.

So this year, it’s authentic. And yes, I do struggle with that.
I’ve been adjusting to other people’s expectations all my life. Failed at it, mostly, but I tried. I don’t want to do that anymore.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to change drastically. Maybe I’ll stop avoiding some topics (see below), but I don’t think I need to turn my life upside down to be authentic. I do believe I am who I am and I’m not going off on a goose chase to find a new me.

For me, being authentic is about the way I’ve been processing things and most of that is in my mind.

The worry I feel when I try to tell my truth, the fear of rejection when I’ve let things slip and have been fully me for a little while, the uneasiness of embracing my interests and talents (I really want to put quotes around that last word, to mock the idea of me having talents – and that’s a very good example of what I mean). And eventually the doubt about who I really am.

I’m ready to change that.

A little explanation before the last part of this post: this is one of those topics I never really talk about out of fear of rejection. I don’t want to offend anyone (I know a lot of my readers are Christans), but my interest in things like this is part of who I really am and I would love to be able to talk about it more freely, both on the blog and in real life. You know… being authentic. So here it goes.

Yesterday I decided to pull a tarot card to signify the theme of the year and I got the Empress.
I don’t know if you can read it on the photo, it says: “Be happy with the results of your actions.”” Keywords are fertilty, beauty, happiness, nature, pleasure, development and succes.
I’m still very much a beginner (hence the cards with explanations) and also still exploring if and how I really want to use tarot, but it seems fitting. Being happy with the results of ones actions is being authentic, I think.

Well… I’m going to hit publish before I decide to not be authentic and delete this post.

Wishing you all a wonderful 2025!

14 thoughts on “Authentic”

  2. I don’t do Tarot, but I think you must use whatever feeds your soul. I hate when people use their faiths to judge others. Any religion that uses their beliefs to try to control how others live their lives is not right. My belief in God is not affected by your search for your truth. My belief in God does lead me to pray for your well-being and happiness, however you attain it, so I hope you are not offended by my prayers. As long as you are at peace, I support whatever means you arrive there. Kudos to you for choosing to live your life in a real way. I encourage you to find strength to walk your path this year, and do not let others sway you from your journey.

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    2. You said it beautifully and perfectly. I 100% agree with this. My faith is not other people’s faith and what feels good to me does not feel good for others and vice versa.

      We should be kind to eather other. We are all walking each other home, after all.

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  3. Oh this is so interesting. I’m trying to understand who I am this year, and find my interests and purpose in life.
    For me, that included letting go of tarot lol. I did tarot for over 2yrs, and the years I did, people around me felt I’d changed drastically, some said I was trying to be someone else. Anyway I really enjoyed doing tarot, it was really fun. In Nov 2023 I decided to stop doing readings, I did. But kept getting readings on YouTube and periodically pulling cards out for myself.
    Just yesterday I cut up all my cards, to let it go for real.
    I’m letting it go because I find it no longer useful and feel that it misdirected me a lot because it led me to lots of pain.
    In truth I acknowledge it’s just what had to happen for me to become aware of hidden trauma and pattern.
    I hope you enjoy the cards as much and more than I did, just don’t go too crazy lol. The religion/spirituality space is really loco. Still not a Christian, still drawn towards free forms of spirituality but just not engaging with them anymore.
    All the best dear🤗.

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    1. Yes, I remember you posted about it a while ago. I’ll have to go back and read that again. Thank you for telling me this and warning me. I am very careful with things like this. Too careful sometimes. That’s why I’m still a beginner 😉

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      1. Oh you can be a little more relaxed lol. It is quite fun. Take it more from an intuition expression thing than spiritual to start with, then you follow where it takes you.

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  4. If you want to do tarot, do Tarot and see what it does for you. I wish you lots of fun with it! (and I agree, spirituality can get pretty … let’s say intense. Especially online.) But as long as it doesn’t cause worry or fear or anxiety, go forth. ♥ Authentic is a great word! Daunting perhaps, but small steps still go a long way!

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    1. Thank you! Yes, discussions about that can get intense and I really don’t want that anymore. I used to be very active in religious discussion groups 25 years ago (!), but that wasn’t good for my soul. Right now I just want to share a bit more of my spiritual life and maybe have some kind and respectful conversations about it.

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      1. Oh yes, absolutely – religious discussions get become something else for sure!! Remember, it is YOUR blog. YOU decide where the discussion goes, and you can set the tone and tell folks to move on if you don’t like it.

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