All over the place

This post is going to be a bit all over the place. I have been trying to find a topic to write about, but I’m just not capable of focusing on just one thing right now. Oh wait… I guess that’s the kind of post this is going to be…

Right now I am…

… feeling really tired. I’ve been trying to get myself moving, so this weekend I worked in the garden and yesterday I did some deep cleaning. Much needed and still not finished, but today I need to rest a bit, so I decided to spent a day at my desk. I have a lot of computer work to catch up on anyway.

… trying to hold on to the blogging. It’s slipping away again. Skipping one post, then another one and before I know it, months have past. I just don’t want that to happen.

… giving myself some slack. I was already trying to work through some mental issues, when my daughter told me she is on sick leave with burnout. At times like these the distance between us and our children is so hard and I was really upset about it. But if we’d fly back whenever I feel that way, we might as well move back. So we talked on the phone and I will call her again this week. I’m so grateful that we have that technology these days.

… looking out of my window and seeing a blue sky (so nice, after a rainy morning). And a tree that needs to be cut back. Oh well, tomorrow is another day.

… feeling overwhelmed. Not only by the things I have to do, but also by the things I’d like to do. There are not enough hours in a day, but it’s hard to prioritize. And things may even get busier soon (see below), so I really do need to make choices.

… feeling restless and anxious, but also very hopeful. Remember the cute little ruin? Well… the realtor contacted us last week. I thought the other buyer lost their chain condition, but that was not the case. When we made the offer, they had just found a buyer for their current house. Or so they thought. That deal fell through and our offer was accepted. We signed the contract last week. Then we had to wait three days (our legal period to change our minds), before the other buyers are informed (today!) and then they have 48 hours to get the money and close on the house. So we still may lose it, if they can raise money that fast (after all, they knew already there was another buyer), but there is a big chance we have it. Please pray, cross your fingers, send good vibes, whatever you can do to help this happening. Or to help me accept that it wasn’t meant to be if it doesn’t…